gifts on valentines day

to receive this day as it is and not as i wish it was, seems like an impossible task, sometimes.  especially as i stand here at the dfa, at the end of a long queue, only to realize it is pouring.  down.  the rain.
or when i have big plans for a productive day, but have to deal with people dynamics at the farm, some in fighting going on.

i wish for tomorrow a lot.  on these times, i forget and rarely consider the fact that tomorrow does not really even exist.
every week, most often on a sunday, i purpose to receive the day as the only day i got.  some days i am overflowing with gratitude for the beauty and the peace.  sometimes for the sunshine, and yeah, sure, for the rains.  i pick out gifts and blessings like blooms in a whole field full of daisies!  there is more than enough to go around.

but there are other days when i take on the blues, and i trip over some stuff, and feel there is just too little time.  i am worried and fragile, and i desperately need a hug, an embrace, maybe just my hands held.

today, it's valentines day. ♥ ♥ ♥

i am also learning what it means to embrace those days, too.  because those days are the days when i discover my need for you, for encouragement, for community and solitude and forgiveness.

so whether i am in the midst of the mess, surrounded by the lovely or uninterrupted by things unexpected, i pause and always consider the gift, whatever it might be. 

ilysm!  you give meaning to my life!  ♥ ♥ ♥