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my dreams & visions scare people. my passion and enthusiasm overwhelm those who have yet to journey in the realm of possibility. my huge heart, courageous words and wild life cause others to gawk, gape and gawp, and point. bwahahaha!
but this is exactly where i want to be.
if onlookers are not saying, "you're nuts!" then my dreams need some booster shots!
there are people, most of them well-meaning, who would try to stop me, for one, i have been given some words of discouragement by family & friends saying, there is no point of me farming as there is always the typhoons pounding on this area. the point is, not the farming, but the living in a farm, but they missed the point. bwahahaha!
i think when i show great courage, the source of which i can only smile about, others would try to stifle it, that is just how the world works. funny!
what about these big dreamers: abe lincoln and his ridiculous mission to abolish slavery? or david and his pebble as he faced the giant? they are but two of world changers and game players. they showed up, gave all they had and put on the line in spite of nay-sayers and finger-pointers. and despite all setbacks, they leaped for their dreams!
sometimes, my dreams scare me: an art institute, a restaurant, a gallery and an international exhibit. sometimes, i hear in my head a voice saying, "yes B, you are nuts!" bwahahaha!
but somewhere, i crossed the line of comfort, ease and predictability and chose to live a bigger life.
there is more here, and i will give each day, everything i have, and not look back. (okay, i have, on several occasions, looked back, and i have listened to some voices in the crowd. bwahahaha!)
the lesson? risk pays, and it costs, but it is always worth it!
now, dare dream? bwahahaha!
thank you, ilysm! i know you know it! bwahahaha! ♥ ♥ ♥
my weekend was filled with two long, extended mornings and sweet cold comfy nights to match. it is not often that i get to curl up late and keep myself warm under my self-sewn quilts. hmmmmm, these are the mornings i would like in my life. bwahahaha!
today, as i wake up to prepare for my new routines, and finish up the old ones, i keep my door closed tight against anxiety and welcome in only friends who speak truth in love.
as trouble and hardship and disappointments roll over, as they normally do, and accolades and congratulations and friends high-five me, i hold on to my peace.
i let patience be my new companion while i sit amongst the people, crammed up in jeepneys, walking in throngs to cross the faulty pawili bridge.
while i wait for my coffee to brew at my fave starbucks, perch uncomfortably on the backseat of a tricycle and carry three hand-sewn totes with books and magazines in them from my fave store booksale, i remember love, receive grace and as always, be stubborn in the important things.
my heart brims with gratitude and awe and love and i know you know the reasons. thank you.
my weekend was filled
with confidence
and knowledge
that in the deepest part of who i am,
my identity cannot be shaken
and my strength
cannot be denied. . .
the security
that you have placed in my soul
cannot be taken away from me. . .
so i set down my anxious self-obsession and really live. . .
with awesome abandon!
thank you! ilysm! bwahahaha!
may i sing my song with all my heart,
notice, take in the colours of life anew
and be refreshed as i serve and provide.
may i take opportunities that come my way,
those that knock on my door and those that tap on my window.
may i never lose my enthusiasm to pursue my passions, take time for my creative endeavours.
may i dance in the rain, play in the puddle and enjoy some crazy fun.
and when i feel like the tide has ebbed, may i find your presence and grace to be more than sufficient to keep me safe and loved at all times.
i look forward to a wonderful year, rich and brimming with untold possibilities. . .
